today is D-day

assalamualaikum and hai alls . .

what day today??
for those who don't know . .
today is tuesday . . and 31 January 2012 . .

thennnn . . today . . . . . .
i was called for impromptu(inreview question) . .
seriesly i said that i'm ready for it . .
but, look at the way im answer the question like i'm not ready at all . .
yeahh, of course, so upset . .
but, it's a good lesson for me anyway . .
maybe i'm too excited, and too confident . .
so, this the real . . i have to accept it . .
huuuuuu, sad already . .

but at the same time, ,
i'm release now . .
hehe . . because i don't have to be scared of to be calling for impromptu after this . .

so, the moral is . .
*from the experience . .hee
when u been calling . .
don't be nervous . .
take a deep breath until u comfort back . .
and, the important is . .
don't too confident~

it's good to being called u know . .
at least u know your weakness . .
and now, i realize it . .

kenapa aku malas g skolah??

salam you alls..
ape la punya entry kan..
sekarang da malas..
nanti masuk u nanti cane la ekk..
harapnye tak la kan..
mintak2 kalo dpat u, anis ni jadi dak most rajin in the world lah kan..
heee..
anis tengah tunggu result..
dengar2 22mac ni kan??
skali nak je tahu cepat2 result tu..
tapi nerbois la pulak bila dipiker baik..
alaaa, sampai mse die keluar jugak kan..
memang xleh lari nyee..

hemmm, stress gak..
da brpe hari da xpegi skolah..
da start ponteng, rse mcm tkot pulak nk pg skolah balek..
member ckp ckgu pun da mule cakap2..
budak fom6 da buat perangai..
dlm shari, ade gak lam 10 org absent..
mne tak mrah kan..
yg ksian lgnye kat monitres laa..
kne record nme budak absent..
kalo sorg dua ok a gak..
ni kalo hari2 spuluh org and above..
mau barang jgk nanti..
ye tak??..heee

papepon,, still wondering,confius,curious..
abah bg x tinggl STAM??
huh,,no idea already..

rindu laaa kat dak2 5ub last year . . bile la reunion ni?? ahaks . .
leave u alls with love~

now . . i know my dream is like what . .

im so sad when the people around me would asking me about my dream . .
indeep my heart squel louder that said . .' i don't know! '. .
and that time . . im so down . .
just because i dont have the focus like others . .
everybody have their dream . .
its like . . i dont have my faith . .
yes . . i want to be the independent one . .
but, still . . HOW CAN I??
I DONT HAVE A DREAM YET . .
WHAT I WANT TO BE THEN?? . .
IN WHAT I NEED TO FOCUS ON??
many question in my head . .
AM I A LOOSER??
i need help . .
really need it . .
my tear comes down slowly . .
then, it goes to be faster and faster . .
im crying because of myself . .
untill when i will  be like this . .


that was yesterday . .
now . . i have my dream . .
in my future, i want to open a tuisyen centre . .
i want to help week student . .
i want to find a best teacher to work at my tuisyen centre . .
i want to give them support, tips, and hopes to them to be succes . .
thats my dream . .
thats i want to be . .
yeahh . .
wish me luck . .
 

when family become a stranger . .

this is not a good news anyway . .

i'm totally shock when my cousin call me and narate her story . .
it's really the shocking one . .

yeaa . . can u imagine??
when, the one u believe, not honest to u . . and . . the worse is, that person, take your lover . .

ok, i will explain deeper here . .
the three of us, are cousin, and we are close together, . .
and, let say there were A , B and ME . .
it started when A has a bf . . and i and B also know her bf . .
and, recently . . A have a problem with her bf . . and her relation with that guy stop for a while . .
then, B silently text A's bf . . 'kononnya nak pujuk' . . and 'terucap pulak kata sayang'
after that, couple la 2 orang tu . .
i dont just blame B . . but that bf also . .
why that bf so easy to change2 and passing his love from somebody to somebody??
and, why B choose that bf to be her boyfriend . . instead, that guy was her cousin's boyfriend . .

uhhh . . i don't understand with this 'puppy love' . .
now, A was the victim . . so sorry for her . .