kisah hati

everyone has their own hati..

and every each has a different story..

"lain orang lain kisah die"

begitu juga dgn ambe ni..i've my own story..

about this HATI

yang never dgr cakap..ketegap yang amat

tapi ketegak2 pun, sometimes ade baiknye..

hati ni mudah jatuh cinta pade yang cantik,indah,menarik,semua!

sebab tu orang cakap hati ni lembut..hati jugak mudah tertarik mudah terikat dengan orang baik lagi2 kalo hensem..ehem..its fitrah, cannot say no right..but, itulah, x dapat disangkal lagi, ni lah main point die..

i know him four years ago..we were friend..just friend..aaaaand once in a time, we were close together..for a year, we were keep messaging, keep in touch every day *kot*...we were not bored with that, every day we have our topic/story/something to share..aaaaaand we were like a couple..for a year*plus minus*

till one day, during my semester break..i was reading a lot of stuf like couple/married something like that..and from that, i was thinking about mine..questions and questions like comes and comes..

is what im doing now is true?

what is this for?

what i get from this?

what is my real responsibility now?

how my parent?

my study? i did well??

then, it comes

did Allah redha with this??

did i get rahmat Allah by this??

im still studying..this is not the right way for me i think..so, we discussed..and ask for a break..

its a hard feeling..the one we keep in touch every day..suddenly we have to finish it with this..

fon also suddenly silent..no sound..

"lets stop here, kalo ade jodoh, we meet again as a husband and wife"

#love after married is better..jage hati, jage mata..to hati, listen to akal !

sentiasa ingat Allah :) insyaAllah

that hart

assalam alls!!

and happy eid mubarak . .

that hart . .

was taken by someone

day by day 

its going to be more and more

this love cannot be return back . .

it must be looking forward . .

papai someone!! 

papai alls!!

nightmare!

last night!!
i had a really weird dream . .

its me and someone . .
a guy . . and i know him!!
he's my friend!!

the situation is like that guy have to leave me . .
be4 he leave he meet me, and aku ckap selamat tinggl . .
aku ckp , ni je la ak boleh ckp kat die . .
kalo die girl, bolehla ak hug and salam cium2 pp . .*dlm hati
tp die laki, just to say good bye . . thats all . .
tibe2, die pegang tgn aku!! aku . . of course shock!!
i can feel his hand . . cold!!

ak mcam xleh fkir, dah la time tu parent die ade . .
tp, im not remember his parent's face . .
lepas tu, ak ingt . . aku tarik tgn ak, then, die pon pg . . ak pon sedar! . .
ape ni??? die??? ak gelak sorang2 mcam org gila . . bhahaha . .
pastu, seram pon ade, ade pulak adegan pegang2 tgn . . oh no!

bila aku tingat kat mimpi ni, ak salu gelak sorang2 . . tibe2 jd nak gelak . .
sebab kwn ak ni, ak boleh kta budk baik, alim laa, xde la nakal2, xde la gatal . .
boleh pulak pegang tgn ank dra org . . mesti la diluar waras kan . .
pastu ade pulak rse x sedap hati, sbb xde lg org yg pegang tgn aku sblom ni . .
kalo ter2 . . mcm tersentuh sipi2 tu penah la, tp kalo yg mcam ni . . huuuu, seram akuu!!
eee . . geli wehh . .

ape2 pon, mimpi ni ak akn ingt la, sebab kelakar . . hahaha, memg aku tak puas gelak lg sbnanye . .
nak je aku text kwn ak tu , tnye die, wehh, ko ade mimpi aku tak smlm?? . . haha . .
tp memg sah ptus fius la kalo ak btol2 buat . .

so, to conclude this, i would say that, mimpi memang mainan tidur . .
and aku yang bermimpi . . seriously, truely, honestly terasa dipermainkan . .
mybe, ak x bace doa kot sblom tdo smlm~

haa, yang ni ak . . girl sme girl . .

saturday - tiring day

as salam . .

lame sunggoh x kua buang duit cam tadi . .

hew hew . . *bdak skang ske taip camtew . . ak try je . . 

memandangkan hari ni saturdaay, 

memang orang pon bersepah la kan . .

ramai gak jmpe kwn td . .

wett, ske gak . . boleh skodeng diorang . . hekhek . .

tapikan, aku ade jumpe ngn someone, tp die ngn somebody . .

yg someone tu dulunye satu sklh ngn ak, tp ak brani comfem die x ingt ak . .

sbb, ak x famous pon dlu . . hahah

someone tu pon bkan famous sngt
die senior ak, tu sbb ak hingat die . .

boleh trima kot sbb tu . . ahak

msok yang td da due kali ak tersempak ngn die, pnah skali tersmpak tu last year tak silap . .

kat situ jgk , and die ngn somebody tu jgk kot . .

knpe ekk ak tersempak ngn die??

yg satu lagi nye, knpe ak cam die, die xcam ak . .

hampasgastul la die tu . . hehek, ,
xde niat pon nk mengate . . soriiiii
 

da lah, jnji dpt men boling da td . . wahahah . . 

main memang tak pandai, tp belagak pandai tu yang xleh blah . . hew hew . .*try lg . .

** ok,memang pic ak letak salu xde kne mngena ngn situasi yang ak tuliss . .

tapi takpe kot . . bkan ade orang bace pon . . hikhik 

when family become a stranger . .

this is not a good news anyway . .

i'm totally shock when my cousin call me and narate her story . .
it's really the shocking one . .

yeaa . . can u imagine??
when, the one u believe, not honest to u . . and . . the worse is, that person, take your lover . .

ok, i will explain deeper here . .
the three of us, are cousin, and we are close together, . .
and, let say there were A , B and ME . .
it started when A has a bf . . and i and B also know her bf . .
and, recently . . A have a problem with her bf . . and her relation with that guy stop for a while . .
then, B silently text A's bf . . 'kononnya nak pujuk' . . and 'terucap pulak kata sayang'
after that, couple la 2 orang tu . .
i dont just blame B . . but that bf also . .
why that bf so easy to change2 and passing his love from somebody to somebody??
and, why B choose that bf to be her boyfriend . . instead, that guy was her cousin's boyfriend . .

uhhh . . i don't understand with this 'puppy love' . .
now, A was the victim . . so sorry for her . .

ad ape dgn lilin??

arghh!!..pusing!pusing!..ak xtaw sawan ape ak bg statement mcm tuu..ade ape dgn lilin??..huh..ni si mat lilin nye pasal la ni..ntah dr mne dtgnye tah..

mesti korang xtaw spe si mat liin ni an..haa, ak nk ckp a ni..si mat lilin ni ak singktkn dgn sml ok..ak sebebnarnye ok je lau org nk knl2 an..ske je..haha!..gedik!!..p yg x thn nye lao org tu x jujur..memg a ak rse cam nk hentak kt dinding..huh fed up ak dbuatnye..
mcm ni ctenye..seminggu lpas..sml ni emm..hantar satu pesanan rngkas kat ak..ceewah!..die tulis dlm tu nme die,umo die,n bla bla..ak da x hingt..pastu..ak time tu tngh boring thap gaban pnye psal..ak kasi blas la an..p ak blas ape xtaw..x ingt..huh!! nmpk sngt ak ske mkn semut itam..wekk!! geli ak..
haa..ak ingt ak tnye die mne dpt nombo ak ni kan..haha!!..memg gile pnye gedik la ak ni..pastu die blas la..die ckp die bru bli fon bru..pastu ade nombor ak dlm tu..hah!!..ak memg da frust gle dgn sml ni..ade ke mcm tu??..huh x logik btol..p lpas pde tu ak blas..ak ckp..mcm die ni kencing ak a an..hah..die ingt ak spe seng2 je nk tpu yee..deyyy! tgk org a nk tpu2,hai laa..mcm ni org pun ade ke..*ihh telebih plak ak..pastu die blas plak..die ckp ape ko taw??..ak memg x sangka a die ckp cmtu..memg mcm org xde iman pun ade..yelaaa..mne x nye..die besumpah ko taw..die sumpah die x tpu..huh memg sawan a die ni..ak pon dgn gediknye blas..k la ade keje..bla bla bla..ak ckp ap tah ak xtaw..da lpe doll..long time agoo..kahkah..nk skeeping lak ak ni..ak memg hancor lau bab2 skeeping..minx jgn maki ak la yee..ngee~
p mlm tu ad la ak col die..yelaa..ak nk pastikn yg die ni btol bkn kwn ak..so ak col nk kasi dgr sora skit..mnela taw ade kwn ak yg nk acah brpe tinggi thap ak x lyan org xknl..haha..*perasan!..p ak layan da mslahnye..hemm

stat pde ary tu laa..esoknye die col ak ke ahh..emm xsilap cm tu lah..hehe..die mint sungguh col2..x phm toi ak..p ak x angkt..die ingt die spe seng2 nk colim2..ak wat x dngo..xnk kecoh ahh..xlmenye mamat ni..ak kompom..p sebaliknye..ad time ak angkt..mybe time tu ak tngah boring..haha..ak memg..dtg je boring memg terok a..habis yg ak xske ak layan..benci btol ak..n stat pde tu jgk lah..ak dpt knl die..syok jgk knl die..bes aa..da tue kan..so da matang..ak ske time die bg pndpt..n ak wat bodo' je..hahah..kejam! p papepon ak bleh kte die baek a..n die seorg yg......
ehehe..korang xpelu taw..tu aty ak pnye psal a..sbok je ko..hari tu ak memg sakan borak ngn die..bes a plak..haha..maklomla..ak bab2 nk borak ni on je..haha!!..p esoknye sml senyap..ak ingt da lpe ak..mklomla..da puas borak..da la an..
p esoknye..pg2 lg die col..huh..memg swan laa..ak yg nek gle plak..p ak x angkt..haha..pg2 mesti a tdo..p x tdo pon..sje mlas nk angkt..ary tu ad la 2 3 kali die col..ak wat dekk je..ehehe..pastu ak angkt pde pnggln sterusnye..mklomla..boring!..kwang2..ckp2..memg x dinafikn die memg bes..p ak xdela smpai nk wat balak ke hape..stkat just friend ok la..ak bab2 nk cintan ni susah..bkn ak xde rse nk becinta..tp ak da matang n thu yg mne baek untk ak..hehe..btol ke matang??..hemm..tp lao ngn kwn2 ak..ble ak ckp ak'ak da matured doo' mesti dieorg kte ak glee..x caye ke ak da matured??..p ak nk jd matured laa..hai laa..redo je..

back to the story..ade satu mlm tu..line x brpe mlm tu..ak pon x taw knpe..p die col ak..ckp kjap putus..emm..mslah line x stabil..ak ingt die ltak ke ape ke..p x..memg line pnye kje..mkn gaji bute tol line mlm tuu..ak pon xleh nk wat cane dah..nk tdo je rse..penat sehari ary tu ak x dok rumah..pg kursus..mlm tu plak die kcau..huh..hangin jgk..p wat x taw jee..die col ak angkt..die mses ak blas je..kan da kwn..so ak lyan bek je laa..n bla bla bla..stop psal mlm tuu..

pg esoknye plak crte bermla..dua kali die col ak x angkt..kali ke 3 tu ak jwb..ingt nk sambong tdo je..p alang2 tgn ak da gle pg angkt..ckp je laa..x sangke plak ary tu kali pertme n sterusnye terakir die kcau ak..emm..sedih jgk kehilangn kwn cam die..p ak pon xley nk wat ape..scare keseluruhnnye..cehh..die memg kwn yg bek..n lao die kawin die akn jd suami yg baek buat istri die..ehehe..mcm lebih2 plak ak..

mesti plik asal tbe2 ley ptus kwn??..emm..tu laaa..ak mlas nk habaq kt sni..p ak arap die x ambl aty ngn ak..n akn lpekn perkenalan kteorg yg x sampai seminggu pon..ak bkan x iklas kwn ngn die..korang apr taw..ap aty ak rse..p die ok jee kut..ak harap die akn knl org yg lbih baek dr ak..sbb ak xnk lebih ngn die..kat kawn je..fullstop..pastu die bg ak pepatah ni..mgkin menggmbarkn perasaan die kot..die ckp..ak xpasti die kecewa ke hape..p die ckp.."tgk lilin kn..patu kte nyalakan die..pastu ble smpai mse die pg cmtu jee"..emm..ak memg salute la sml ni..x penah org siap bg pepatah kt ak..huh..memg terasa smpai ke tulg itam ak rse ble die ckp cmtu..memg hati btu la ak lao ak x rse ape2 kan..p tu mnunjukkn ak msih ad hati..emm..ak sbnanye ok kwn ngn die..p tu lahh..memg nasib..x sngke bleh jd cm ni..ni lah perkenalan yg pling singkt penah ak hadapi..ceeeehh..hadapi siot!..kakah..

huh..rse mcm pnjg thap gle story ak..ak rse cam nk wat cerpen plak..hahah..sendoi..p tu la ak rse dah kecewakn org..ak plak yg x sdap dudul jdnye..hemm..xtaw lah ape nk jd,jd..tu sme kje Allah..pncipta ak..ya Allah..ak harap ak xkn kecewakn org lg lpas ni..hemm..amin..
daa..assalamualaikum..

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the reality

ape yg ptut korang wat kalo ad org ajak kapel??..hah mamon btoi a mamat tu..kenai ak pon x tetibe nk ajak ak kononnya jd kekaseh la..piirah..ingt ak ni hape..seng2 nk caye kt laki..ak x pham btoi ngn si mamon ni sorg..dia ni boleh kira teror a jgk..ambk course syariah islamiah..bleh plak ajak budak mcm ak ni kapel..hampeh toi..ak ingt org yg ambk syariah ni warak2..rpanya ad jgk yg cm ni..hemm..nasiblah labuuu..ak pon satu, layan sngt!..his apelaa..da tu xkn ak nk bia je die..die pon ade pasaan..lau ak bia je nt die kte ape plak..ak pon x ske org gatai geltak mcm ni..wat skit otak je..ak da ckp bek2 ngn die yg ak x mint nk kapel2 ape sme ni..ak ni bdak lg..n ak da serik la ngn cnta2 monyet ni..ingt da xde org kacou rpenye ade jgk..ni la..si mamon ni..ak pnggl polis kang kesian,x tegamak ak..gpon ap polis leh wat..die bkn nk colek ak..adoyai~ da tuu! kacou ak sngt..pnggl polis lah..hiss..putus fius tul la si mamon ni..da lah..xtaw lg apa nh habaq..ape2 hal ak akn ckp plak..skrg..ak pegi dlu..nk semayg..kau tu!!semayg dah??..blom lg??..pg semayg lah!!hiss...ini mcm org pon ada kaa..

`puteri plastik~